Hovering Shadows

Ever since Wednesday I had this dark shadow surrounding me, I felt so sad and gloomy. And I still feel the same way now as I'm writing this post. Work sucks and I'm thinking of quitting, feeling that it's better than having to keep up with those people. I don’t want people to talk me out of this *deep sigh*. I've known myself to be that person with pride who tries her best not to shed a tear when is in company. But ever since Wednesday they have seen me crying many times. I hate it and I can't bear with it. I'm that person who is quite and calm, and who tries her best not to look weak and never let anyone or anything hurt her. I hate it when everyone is trying to convince me to get all those negative ideas out of my head, just leave me the way I am because sooner or later they will all disappear and I'll go back to my senses, all I need is to sit alone and think things with myself. Just leave me alone its enough that I'm depressed.

Things come together all at once. Now and at this moment I'm trying not to touch my face. I woke up on sat with this allergy from I don’t know what (that’s what I thought at the beginning and turned out that my skin has become more sensitive than ever). At first I thought it was something normal but it started burning like hell. I went to the doctor and he banned me from using all beauty products plus soap. I can only use Johnson baby shampoo (God I just hate my sensitive skin) also I'm not allowed to use perfume (WHAT! Well that I don’t accept. I won't use it on my skin but if I want to, I will spray my clothes and then wear them). He gave me this thing that people use when they have chickenpox and it works perfectly.

Have you ever answered your mobile and heard people talking, things inside a handbag, keys, and other noises just because your name starts with an A? my name is usually the first name on the contact list (that’s when people put my name coz when the put my nickname I usually end up in the middle).

I'm glad its Wednesday, this week was one of the longest weeks ever. On sat I went to the university and I got a chance to meet some of my friends, God knows how much I miss them. I'll tell you later about sat and why was I at the university.

Song of the moment: somewhere I belong- Linkin park ^_^

Chatter 7

OMG yesterday was valentines day I totally forgot about it. Lol I noticed it was valentine when I found some msg's and red roses when I logged in my facebook account (somebody actually likes me :P lol.). ama shabab SA mo 6abe3yeen.

I'll tell you in short what has happened to me in the past two weeks.

- A co-worker has fleas (I remember that there is another name for it but I cant recall it damn. because fleas comes with animals but the one that affect humans are called……. I can't remember). I swear to god that I was sitting beside her, I turned to ask her something and I saw them crawling in her hair. I felt this itch in my body, I was so disgusted and had to leave the room. For your information she is Saudi. I thought that these bugs were extinct.

- My vacation sucked. We arrived at about 6 something pm and well we didn’t do much the first night. The second day we visited family. The third and fourth day we went camping. I was the first to say no (b3deen where do we camp fe Jeddah?) but my uncle said that we will go far away about 100 kilometers (it was boooooring). I discovered that I'm a city girl 100%. I'm still angry with my uncle Abdul rahman for chasing after me with this huge, disgusting bug. I spent the worst two days and one night of my life. I don’t mind going from dawn to dusk but sleeping there is just horrible.

- On Tuesday we had this big family gathering and after midnight my cousin (A) wasn’t feeling well. She asked my cousin (Z) to help her stand, and guess what happened, her water broke. At eight in the morning she gave birth to a baby girl.

- I found out that I LOVE Rio so much. Although I used to complain about how boring it is and bla bla bla.

- I'm addicted to butterflies by Karl Wolf. I listen to it non stop.

- I don’t remember having this neo counter ------> and I remember I deleted the neo counter ages ago. Remember the flag thingy that was on the side bar.


PS Ahmed to9al belsalama and good luck do your best bro.